Finally, another post.

Hello again,

Well I knew that I wouldn't make it back to this blog too often, but I never expected it to take me 2 months! Unfortunately my computer crashed, and I have yet to be able to get back into it again. I have since been given a friend's old one, and so at least I can now get back on line on a more regular basis.

So, what's been happening in the world of the "old and pregnant"? LOL I figured that this was going to be an interesting journey to say the least, but I wasn't really prepared for the roller coaster of emotions I've been going through. Not that everything I've felt can be put down solely to the pregnancy, but it has certainly been a huge factor. My dh has been very sick since November last year and his condition hasn't improved. He has had a mystery abdominal pain which has yet to be diagnosed and a few weeks back he fell and fractured his pelvis! He has not worked since November and needless to say, finances are grim. So, it was just when I had decided to try and find work, that I discovered I was pregnant. This was not my plan. Then to add just that last little finished touch to it all, we were given notice that our landlord would not be renewing our lease at the end of the term in August and we have been searching tirelessly to find somewhere to move to that meets our needs.

I know that trials are sent to us to strengthen our faith, I've been through that many times before. But somehow this time is different and the assurance that G-d will bring us through all of this hasn't been as obvious within me. I have truely had to walk totally by faith and not by sight, and we're not out of the woods yet.

I am now 17 weeks pregnant. While at my doctors last week, I felt movement for the first time, but haven't felt it since. Next week I go for my 18 weeks scan, and I am hoping that I will find out the baby's sex. I'm not one for waiting for these things. After already having 6 children, I'm over the whole surprise thing and just want to be organized. LOL Also, it saves on agonizing over finding appropriate names. I'm also hoping that seeing this little person for the first time will awaken my maternal and clucky feelings again because so far, I am yet to feel any excitement over the arrival of this child. Perhaps everything else that is going on is getting in the way of all that just now, but it would be very reassuring to know that I really am anticipating his/her arrival.

I met an inspirational woman today via a yahoo group I belong to for older mums. She is 47, has 12 children and still desires more! Far out, what a woman!!! Her blog address is www.mommyx12.blogspot.com After reading her blog and hearing her enthusiasm, I felt so embarassed about feeling the way I have been. Such a shame she lives on the other side of the world as I'd love to sit and have coffee with her some time. Actually... make that tea, because I can't stomach coffee at the moment!

The good news is, I haven't had any morning sickness and I haven't gained any weight even though I am showing. My jeans still fit me, but I am on the verge of needing some new comfy tops to cover my bump.

Until next time,
D'vorah